roaming from one place to another… the nomadic life is quite the dreamy kind.
it is fascinating what traveling does to your mind, body, and spirit. the dreams it awakens that you long forgot about. the reasons why you seek the things you do. the inspiration it brings and the way it opens your mind and heart. the way it heals and repairs what was tired or deprived.
to me, an adventure in nature is the strongest medicine. so much beauty to put you on the edge of your seat and induce the stars in your eyes. i pretty much live to seek new things all the time.
i’ve been practicing yoga for nearly 10 years now. it has helped me with so much. it has taught me to always strive to be present. in the here and now. that is where i always want to be. that is where i want my company to be. together. happy. grateful for the moment we are in. embracing all the good and bad because life is made up of the two polar opposites and all the grey in between.
i can’t believe it has been 8 years since i’ve moved to san diego. time flies. i’ve found countless gems along the way. so much struggle being on your own. sometimes i don’t know how to explain it to others that have not walked the same path. they don’t really get it when i try because most of them never had to live without the things they loved the most. 8 years… the things i’ve missed out on with my own family. the guilt. the homesickness. it all hits you when you settle down from the busy life. most days are good but it always sits there in the back of the mind where i’ve pushed it in order to carry along with personal goals. nowadays, it sits on the forefront. leaving me wondering what the next chapter will be like. how will i rebuild my life now that i have my own family to plan for? can i continue doing this on my own or am i too burnt out? can someone move to california to keep me sane? just some recent thoughts.
everyone is growing old. i just want to be a better sister, daughter, aunt, cousin, niece, wife, and granddaughter. how do i do that from hundreds of miles away? sometimes i dream about living near all of our cousins and raising our littles together. wouldn’t that be grand?